Medicated depression, day #837
I was late to work today .. overslept as I was up pretty late last night. I strolled in at the office just after 9.
Later during the day I got called into an impromptu meeting with my manager, my sick days have been piling up and soon HR come asking what is going on. Had a good talk.
Came home and had dinner with family, finish and are scrolling on the phone when wife says; "I've been thinking we should get two new mattresses for our bed, we can split it into separate beds and can sleep better..." .. what?
Is this the first step? The first step towards separation? To splitting up our marriage? Getting divorced?
Maybe I have these random thoughts out of nowhere .. or is there something going on?
It kind of feels like when I started to fall into my depression earlier, bottomless sadness, sticky thoughts and nothing could up my mood.
fuck.