Medicated depression, day #76
Arrived somewhat late to the office due to weather, now in beginning of April, a typical spring month, has heavy snow fall. Easily 5+ centimeters (more than 2 inches for you US persons) of fresh snow fell during the night and continues to fall, large whirly snowflakes.
Slept fairly well this night, but still just 5.5 hours. Fitbit scored it to "84", on a weekly average of score "76" and 6.25 hours. I'm not impressed, need to increase the amount of sleep to about 7 hours or maybe 8. I can't recall if I dreamed anything, or if it is too early for that, usually I start to dream stuff about second week of vacation as I would be well rested. So not up to that level yet.
I had a really good talk with my manager yesterday as he swung by the office and spent half the day, though occupied with meetings most of the time but after and in between, we had some time to talk. Got some more info about current events, planning and general stuff, explained what gives me stress onset and spikes, what my opinions are about project direction and staffing. My input aligned with his thinking as well regarding how things are handled and planned, good to know we are pulling in the same direction.
Fun thing, our (mine and managers) old boss, the one who hired us both to previous employer are back in town, she just became CEO of a local company so she shot manager a text message suggesting a lunch, really cool, I liked her and she was a really good boss, she was the main reason I stayed on with previous employer as long as I did, if she had left earlier I would have left too. We did leave on the same day officially but she stayed on for a few more weeks as stipulated by contract but without working.
This week has been more work than previous, I haven't had as many hours of "outage" where my brain clogs up and refuses to function, I've had a few episodes where I had to up and leave, do something else for minutes or hours where I did something else and then come back, on the other hand, this week was short since Easter holiday and Monday was off. But still, a slight improvement. The increased dosage of medication may be the cause or reason.
Later: Meh, headache coming on. left temple is throbbing.
Later: oops, it happened again. I fell asleep and napped for 1.5 hours. Woke up with a twitch.
Later: twiddling with code, mushy brain. Not very productive today.
Later: pulled out another project that are similar to the one I have problems with, to compare what is different between them, if any .. I'm still alone at the office space, skipped lunch, just found a bag of potato chips left from some event at the office, still fresh .. had a few.
I'm not getting anything done, at least nothing useful. I have cleaned up some code but that ranges from some formatting to prettifying comments ..
Later: My memory is shit, I thought about something to search for, before I had opened up a new tab, it was gone .. and could not remember what I had thought about. I'm apparently closely related to goldfish .. 3 second memory.
Almost time to leave the office, Friday at 17, have to do time reporting, which is wonky, as I have these episodes of brain mush-iness .. for which I won't invoice the customer, it would not be fair.
Later: Time reporting is borked, the row for my customer assignment is locked and expired last of March, somebody tripped up the reporting .. and I would have discovered it earlier if I hadn't waited to last day of first week of April .. d'oh! OTOH, the PL is away on leave so I can't do anything anyhow. Somebody have to unlock it next week, so I can report time, though late.
Later: Son just called, time to go. This weekend there is no solid plans for anything, I hope I get some sleep, going to bed early tonight.