Medicated depression, day #73
Alone at the office space, I guess most colleagues either have the day off or are working from home, it's still early, they might show up around 09.
Have spent the Easter weekend resting, with a short visit to my parents place to meet parents and brother + girlfriend for Easter dinner, a roast of lamb with Shitake sauce and potatoes. Hung out with them for a few hours before turning back home. Between Saturday and Sunday I slept for 12 hours, but still felt tired, gonna try adding more hours on regular days so I don't sleep away the weekends.
Saw a documentary about Encephalitis Lethargica or "EL" for short, which was really interesting as there were some parallels to COVID-19, in regards or post-illness effects. But in large no proven evidence, still interesting.
Got questions from family about my symptoms, described it as "occasional brain fog, unable to form thoughts, deep sadness and running mantras of disturbing and negative sentences", which has been fewer and farther apart since I started with the new dosage, effectively doubling the dose. Negative side-effect noticed this far; dryness of mouth -- this is a known and documented side-effect.
This night I got 2:45 hours of sleep, not ideal. Need to get more sleep.
Later: Nodded off a bit, nobody else in the office, I sat with closed eyes for about 45 minutes, dozed off, not sure if I fell asleep. Went for more coffee in an attempt to wake up.
Later: Skipping lunch, not hungry and no desire to eat. Hope to leave the office a little early this afternoon.
I'm getting stress onset as I have a meeting booked later where I previously were a passive participant, but as my colleague are now out of the project and customer, I get to be primary .. without any handover or anything, I have only a vague idea of what is going on, in broad strokes, I hope I get more team members soon as I'm not sure I can handle the load of setting up infra and debug API's at the same time. Need to notify PL about meetings where their presence are needed.
Later: minutes before meeting, getting colleague in a short brief meeting to update. I don't know what is up with his assignment, he should be out for all I know. But happy that he is available to join the meeting.
Later: Was introduced to the others in the meeting as the resource replacing colleague as he is will eject officially today and I'll pick up, though he'll be available for questions and support as we are desk neighbors. Not many tasks to hand over, current will be handled by colleague and later handed over to me.
Later: A wave of sleepiness washed over me and I almost fell asleep, brain is mushy, circled back on refactoring, listening to blues and tweaking code to expose correct interfaces and hooks.