Medicated depression, day #53
At the office early, arrived a few minutes ago, 07:33. I usually start at 08:00 but had to make sure son got breakfast and got on the bus in time for school.
Yesterday I had weird fever, freezing and sweating like a pig, wild swings in between and had a not-quite-migraine and spent most of the day in bed when I got home, slept for about 2.5 hours. I left work because I felt migraine-like headache coming on and could not form simple thoughts, much less abstract thoughts needed to be able to work, as the scripts and code is quite complicated and needs several levels of think.
This night I slept for not more than 3.5 hours. My feet hurt really bad. It's snowing outside and I just want to go home and sleep. Colleagues will arrive in about 15 minutes. Wednesday is usually office-breakfast day.
I'll try to fix the last couple of things needed to be able to build and deploy the solutions I have sdk-upgraded and refactored, so I can have my colleague have a look at it and do some regression tests. It would be lovely to close those tickets as they are starting to get old.
Later: Had lunch with colleagues, talked about robot grass mowers, how their "smarts" aren't so smart and that they tend to escape or get stuck. I find the comradery at the office really good, we're guys with interest for technical things and we have worked together for the last 5+ year, we can talk about feelings, sorrow and really personal things, deep trust.
A colleague I work closed to was one of the first to know about my depression diagnose, as I thought he needed to know. Another colleague who has been off and on sick leaves due to being burnt out, we compared experiences and came to the conclusion we have pretty much the same symptoms but for different reasons, we are also on the same medication. Interesting to share experiences.
boo-boo-of-the-day: the PL rescheduled a meeting from morning to later in the day, colleague and I miss it due to discussing a problem, call in 10 minutes late and there is no PL, PL had missed it completely and are rescheduling for tomorrow.
Later: The thinker is working so-so, I can form thoughts and reason logically enough to work on stuff, but I don't feel I could do anything more advanced than that, fortunately most of the refactoring is done and I need to get it out to the test environment to run regression tests, to check if there is any regressions or differences from previous versions .. writing tests as well.