Medicated depression, day #512
Went to parents today, mom is bed bound and she floats in and out of consciousness, dozing or light sleep. Always tired.
Dad is holding up, he's very active and are fixing stuff, making mom food and serving her to keep her happy.
I know my mom holds out only to see her second grand son, arriving in mid July, she's stubborn and won't let go until that.
My own mental health is so-so, I feel that there is positive energy at work and it is fun, varying tasks and no day is like the other, which is good. Challenging tasks that requires full concentration, sometime to the limit, where I fall asleep from exhaustion at my desk.
Sometimes that also happens from less than stimulating tasks, where I have a hard time staying awake due to something being dull and non-stimulating.
I worry about economy, last month some of the bills bounced since I had to pay a large bill, the fridge and freezer .. and some bills didn't get paid as I didn't had enough money on my account, I saw this on Friday and set them to be paid on Monday as one of them would default with the full amount if set amount (25% of the full amount) wasn't paid within a week from notification .. the other I have until the end of the month, so that will be paid too. Stressful, I don't like it but I can't really help it either.
Soon time for vacations, we have nothing planned but there is a few thing we would like to do anyway, a cruise for a few days or a road trip somewhere, we're trying to align our weeks off, wife has a little more flex, mine was "booked" back in February as they need to be coordinated with the whole team.
Son have summer leave from school, he's off school until mid august and don't have any day care or similar, he'll just be home and hang out with friends.
I still have trouble going to be at time, I stay up and do nothing or watch Youtube videos until very late .. some days I go to bed very early and sleep late, like today, went to bed before 23 last night and slept till 10 this morning .. but still felt like I just had touched the pillow and slept for a few minutes.
I also have contacted a dietetics .. for some help losing weight. Haven't heard back from them yet.