Medicated depression, day #45
Just me an a colleague at the office today, we work on the same customer and sit on opposite desks with a partition in between.
Another colleague contacted me and dropped a few questions, whether I could access system so and so on customer so and so, checked and failed with first server but managed to get in on the second one, but further access were denied. Poked at manager for getting privileges .. though this customer is really weird and wonky to work with so I'd rather be off-boarded if had a say in it.
Slept almost 7 hours, which is a good thing .. everything above 4.5 hours is a bonus as I've slept really bad the last couple of weeks. No nightmares though but rather vivid dreams, I don't remember them after waking up but not in bad mood or dark thoughts which was the case earlier .. as suggested by friend who had the same medication earlier, the "boring average" mood, no deep highs nor deep lows.
Later: Another colleague showed up, we're now three persons at our office space.
Later: Mgr contacts me about weird customer access, it appears as if they have downgraded or removed my access to zero, I can get in but can't do anything. Mgr is also the person I talked about my depression, who held the session about Imposter-Syndrome on one of our competence days a while back, they asked how I were feeling, gave some feedback and they thought it was good that I could be open with my condition and talk about it, explain my feelings and how situations affect me.
Later: Got a message on LinkedIn from an HR person at a competitor, asking if I'd be up for a meeting or coffee and discuss opportunities .. declined politely and said that I'd happily keep in touch.
Later: Had a lunch date with wife, went to an optician afterwards for some errands, wife had a pair of glasses that were double focals but were exchanged for a pair of regular as she could not use them. I looked at a few frames but they were either round in shape or they were plastered with large logos in bright colors, would make me look like a walking advertisement. I'm looking for new frames (and glasses) with rectangular shapes, as it doesn't make my face rounder but instead breaks that off, preferably with slightly wide frames around the glasses, think old dorky square bakelite frames as it would fit the slide over shades (sunglases) I use. I'll think about it, I need new glasses soon, the ones I got now were bought in Asia 2019.
Later: Managed to somehow get an application deployed even though the deployment script fails .. hard to get fixed with a mushy brain. Want to go home and sleep, still very tired, even more so after two meetings and some coding. My plans for the evening are simple; eat, shower, go to bed. Possibly watch some youtube vids.