Medicated depression, day #41
Slept exceptionally bad this night, less than 5 hours of sleep. Brain is barely functional, caveman level, adding coffee in large amounts. Had some bad thoughts last night and tried to mitigate by watching happy and positive videos to reset brain, worked "so-so", still had very negative dreams.
At the office, managed to hack together some code, refactoring legacy code, that doesn't throw any immediate errors, have to do some testing to regression test that piece of code specifically as it could throw off the whole application if difference in function. Got a few code passages left to refactor before I can compile and test functionality.
My feet hurt, my back hurt, my thinker hurt.
The weekend is very much welcome, it's just a few work hours to endure and then two days off.
Later: Deeper into refactoring, almost done, have a few tricky passages to straighten out, colleague asked me about lunch, to have pizza with old colleagues at a nearby pizza place, declined, since I had pizza the last couple of days, latest last night as I brought home the pizza from our Arduino-hack event that we saved as leftovers, I'll go fetch something simple, some protein and some veggies.
PL is going on about migration of things, asking lots of questions while I attempt to stay focused to refactor code .. not that easy, getting stressed from the flood of questions.
Later: ah, yeah. I'm going on a doctors appointment later this afternoon, an appointment that has been pushed forward since late October last year, but got rescheduled a few times due to Covid-19, illness and a survey/fill-out form that got lost in their systems, as they apparently could not see me unless it was filled out properly. It is unrelated to my depression, more related to my age and checkups. I don't think I'll go back to the office but will rather continue on to home, I'll just stretch the time reported to end of day.
Later: Leaving the office in about 15 minutes, for doctors appointment, whittled down code passages to a single one, that doesn't want to play nice as it is a list of objects that won't convert to another type without using force .. and explicit iterations. So, I'll probably need to sleep on it, come back fresh on Monday morning and just solve it .. build should be ok, just a few warnings.
Somewhat nervous for the doctors appointment, the last one was disrupted by the fact that the form was missing and the doctor cut it short due to that, today I'm in for the full shebang, 2 hours. I don't know what it will be like but there were lots of question about food, health, alcohol and tobacco use.