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Medicated depression, day #364

Been away for a month, went to south-east Asia with family to have vacation, meet relatives and friends.

34 days of total relaxation, zero "musts" and take the days as they come.

I feel this has been a sort of "reset" for me, I actually wanted to go back to work days before we went back home .. feeling joy and inspiration going back.

Worked Thursday and Friday at 50%, were tired but not exhausted, which is a good sign. Next week will also be at 50% but the week after that will be at 75%, to test the limitations, if that works out I'll go up to 100% .. but will be really careful to not over-extend myself or over-work myself, of course in conjunction and discussions with my doctor.

I'll be on medication for a while longer.

The last doctor I met, trashed previous doctors for not doing more, I was not put in contact with a dietitian, nor had any arrangements for getting me into more physical therapy. She ripped everyone a new one.

I have by myself sought contact with the dietitian care unit, to get to meet somebody there for help.

I'm also looking into getting a gym membership, to go sit on the training bikes to get a couple of kilometers a few hours each week.

But I need to push that a bit into the future, money is a bit tight at the moment, as we spent a little more than we planned during vacation.

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