Medicated depression, day #317
I'm annoyed. Very annoyed.
The Doctor I met this afternoon pretty much invalidated my diagnosis and said that I should be back at work in full capacity. Everything was wrong with my previous visits and all the previous doctors were wrong as well, as they did not follow up with new self-assessments, even the therapist was wrong to end our bi-weekly sessions.
She herself was doctor number 4 or 5 in succession, all the previous ones have rotated out due to getting better offers elsewhere or being rental-doctors with short contracts.
She agreed to write me a doctors notice, that end in Mid-January, just days after my vacation, with the intent to drive me back to the health center. According to the doctor, my sick leave shouldn't have been "this long", but should have been more therapy and shorter intervals between doctors appointments.
So, I hope that she's gone by Mid-January and that there is a sane doctor in her place.
At the end I asked about Testosterone-level test, the health center do not do those, at all, the doctor advised me to seek a "men-clinic" as they do stuff like that, meaning "flogging men for money as this is just a hype", while my curiosity and own research had ticked so many boxes and I felt it would be interesting to just test this to know if it is a factor or not.
Anyhow. I worked 50% today, it felt kinda ok. Colleague and I were tossing ideas when discussing a solution, it made me tired but not as tired as before. Got some tasks re-prioritized as thing had changed since last Monday, when I worked last. I sent out a rough draft of what I had been working on, according to the new prioritization, where the first stage where illustrated. Got thumbs up.
At the moment I feel an on-set of stress, some anger and I'm very tired. I'm not gonna go lay down until it's time to go to bed, which might be early today.
Later: I was toying with the idea of extracting all text out of a Wordpress site, render it into Markdown and then use a tool like Hugo to make a static website out of it .. with all the Markdown stored on github.