Medicated depression, day #312
I'm home sick today, half my face is swollen since I got one tooth extracted yesterday, seems like there is an infection going on in my cheek and it's tender, can't open mouth fully.
This together with a ringing head ache forced the decision to stay home today, I would not have performed at any capacity and would not have been able to consume the sandwich that was order for me either.
Last night it wasn't this tender or sore, it was from this morning. Son came to wake me up, by mistake he poked my cheek that was swollen and it was like having bones broken or something, very painful.
I had a brief episode of dark thoughts yesterday, when it felt like the floor under me just disappeared and I feel in to a bottomless pit, "worthless", "no good", "they will find you out" and similar thoughts, I managed to snap out of it eventually but I think I got stuck for 20 minutes or so .. and were really sad after, like it affected me still even though I know it is dark thoughts.