Medicated depression, day #209
I'm up .. I've had breakfast .. it's 07:30 .. I have a meeting at 09:30 with KC who is showing up physically at the office.
I feel like a proper nap would be the correct thing to do, but I would probably oversleep and be late or completely miss the appointment. The coffee didn't do much about tiredness this morning. Maybe need to pour another cup over it ..
Outside is rainy and gray, sub-20°C something and from what it looks like, a cold drizzle. I'm too lazy to bring an umbrella to the office today, so I'm probably gonna be soaked.
I hope to escape from work and KC at about 11:30 sharp, to go straight home to rest, sleep.
I got a letter from government body responsible for compensations, they would like to have additional information from my doctor, a letter between them that I have been CC'd on .. with a letter printed on dead trees.
Later: I took a 20 minute nap on the bed, set timer, closed my eyes and fell asleep, timer woke me up and I spent another 20 or so minutes trying to escape from the bed. Eventually I succeeded.
Later: Had meeting with KC, it was not the meeting I had envisioned. It was about how the project were coming along but also goals and mile stones, as for the governmental insurance to get status and a snap shot of what is done for me to get back to 100% work hours. KC also asked me about my spare time projects and suggested a specific one that might be something that the company maybe could pick up and sell as a service, I politely declined and explained the idea behind it, that it is for the people by the people and that mixing in a company, would lead to bias and expectations of revenue -- not something I want for that project.
KC also wanted me to come back "as soon as possible" to working 100% even though they know that it would take time to slowly ramp up and do it in a pace that my head and thinker align with. KC also talked about the rare case of if I could not find suitable tasks or assignments inside the company or with customers, that the company would help me find another employer that I could sign up with. Not really what I wanted to hear but a nice gesture if it ever would come up to something like that.
KC also knows that one of my fears are to be terminated from the job, I guess they tried to bring it up for discussion gently, to sell me the idea, if that sort of reasoning would occur.
KC was very picky with me keeping time at the office, 8-10 or 9-11 until end of September, but at the same time also point it as "this will be no problem for you, you're always at the office" .. referring to the fact that I have no on-site assignments and thus working from the office.