Medicated depression, day #20
I'm back at the office this morning, I went home at lunch time yesterday as there were no and zero amount of useful thoughts being thinked.
The hamster wheel is turning too fast. I read some quote somewhere that our brains are struggling to keep up with the constant information flow nowadays and that our brains are "made for eating berries in caves".
Yesterday when I went home, I went to bed and had a nap, 2.5 hours .. still after that the old think machine were creaky and I had another nap, 45 minutes. Wife and son arrived home and I got up. Son thought I had slight fever.
This morning after almost 7 hours of sleep during the night feels ok-ish this far .. without any attempted deeper thoughts yet, going to work up to some more advanced thoughts and after lunch we have this competence day, where we just need to sit and listen.
I dream more now when I sleep. Dreams are good, it means that the brain box is processing stuff.
Later: The itinerary for our competence day has a session about Imposter-Syndrome .. I'm gonna attend .. hopefully learn something from it. Messaged the person who is going to hold the session, they were surprised I wasn't on sick-leave .. but with the last couple of days in retrospect, maybe I should be on sick-leave.
Later: Listened to a session about Imposter Syndrome, I checked all the boxes. I could have spoken up and shared some experiences but kept quiet, still interesting though, but they served a few too-easy solutions and did not reflect on the solutions as from the affected persons point of view.
Later: I was just invited to have lunch with a colleague on monday, at their place, something special from their home country.