Medicated depression, day #180
Woke up around 09, son squeezed in between us, wife and me, to snuggle and wake us up, wife had taken day off as her feet were sore after 12 hour shift yesterday.
Called the insurance company the other day, just to get to know what was up with compensations and such; 90 days sick leave, then we can talk. I think I've amassed 90 days already but the asked me to wait until end of July before applying. h'okay.
I've actually managed to code a little, for practice, to exercise the thinker, the mushy lump in my head. Working code. But I last for about an hour before croaking and tapping out, brain becomes mush quickly.
I continue to do this, each time lasting a bit longer. When I visited them at the office the other week, we talked "shop" and I switched into work-mode .. that was exhausting, 10 minutes later brain was mush.
I've been dreaming again, vivid and colorful happy dreams with whimsical plots .. but I rarely remember my dreams when waking up.
Watched dashcam videos with son yesterday, got strong stress onset when watching people crash cars, high pulse, we agreed that we shouldn't watch such videos but rather cute animals and clumsy people.
I get stuck doing nothing at nights, just watching stupid videos, get to bed at 04 in the morning at worst, at best around 01.