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Medicated depression, day #174

Woke up around 09 this morning, son came to cuddle for a bit, just to ask for screen time on the tablet. Had breakfast and fell asleep at the table while having coffee.

Wife called me to discuss a proposition she got from a potential employer, even though she had not yet applied for a position, she's on the short list, as there were no other candidates with the required certifications and skills. But it's a position in another city about 40 minutes with car, a 75% position temporarily. At this time no other details available until she has talked to the hiring manager there.

I said it sounded ok, or good even. I encouraged her to apply, it's an opportunity to gain more experience and knowledge, there is areas she has not yet specialized in but just touched when she studied.

It requires some cooperation and coordination from me and son, I'll help son get breakfast and get ready for school, get to the bus in time and other logistics. Everything manageable.

I'm so proud for my wife. She came to work as an Au-pair, got booted out by the host family as there were disagreements about how much work should be done, she took care of the host family's 2 yro baby and a toddler, kitty factory (cats with long pedigrees) and cooked two meals a day, doing laundry, cleaning the house (including the cat kennels) and also cooked for the frequent dinners the hostess held for friends and family. She had a few hours off-time on Sundays, if lucky. For this they paid her about €350 per month (deductions for housing and food made), this in a city where a monthly cost for public transportation is €100.

She came to stay with me when it came tumbling down, I even went to meet her before, to fetch her large baggage and store it for her. A week later she was booted out and her contract cancelled. Helped her to get her last salary, as the host family were bitching about that.

I took her in as she had nowhere to go and she didn't move out, that is 12 years ago, we have been married for 10 years and have a son of soon 11 years. During this time she has learned the language well, educate herself, getting a nurse degree, getting into a specialization, get diplomas and certificates in her specialization, further specializations and worked a several elderly care facilities, both as a regular nurse and with her specialization. We bought a clinic, where she took over the customer stock from previous owner, also getting so many recommendations from everywhere, she schedules are full enough to keep her busy, now with a 75% job would add even more. She works hard. I'm proud she has come this far.

Later: I'm tired and it's not even 7 in the evening, need to stay up for at least 2 more hours, then I can bounce out of bed at 7 tomorrow morning .. or so they say. Probably not gonna be a 7 in the morning, but after 8 I guess.

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