Medicated depression, day #157
Woke up early and had breakfast with son, he went to watch TV and I had coffee and scrolled around on social media for a bit .. suddenly son stood next to me and shook my shoulder, I had fallen asleep at the table.
Went to bed to lay down for a bit, started a podcast and promptly fell asleep. Slept for two hours.
Still tired and sleepy but it's a bit better, topping up with a second cup of coffee.
I really have to address my sleep habits, to make sure I get more than 8 hours a night, as I would be narcoleptic-ish otherwise. The last couple of weeks at the office I had problems with falling asleep or nodding off while working, staring at the screen.
I'm still feeling down and low from a dream I had a few days ago, where I was fired for doing private stuff on company time and equipment, which never has happened in reality. When I slept after breakfast I had a similar dream which brought down my mood further.
At the same time, knowing these were just dreams, they still caused stress onset and slight angst, physical discomfort.
I checked my salary this morning, not fun, as I've been on sick leave since beginning of May, the June salary was minimal. I've sought compensation pay but that is at least a month out and I'm a bit frustrated, the salary I got does not cover the monthly costs, at least €500 short to cover those and then there is food which is another €300 on top of that.
I don't know where I'm gonna find that kind of money.