Medicated depression, day #128
My 100% sick leave ended today and I was supposed to go back to the office on 50% sick leave, working 8 to 12-ish .. but I didn't get anything done. Had a scheduled meeting with the KC and we agreed on that it was a bit too early to start back up, even on 50%.
I arranged an appointment with a doctor on Wednesday, a tele-appointment, to sync and to prolong the 100% for some time.
I still have trouble focusing and holding thoughts, as I described it for my colleagues, "my train of thought constantly derails, spectacularly". But I already knew that when going in to the office this morning.
The KC thought it was also a clear sign that my brain is mushy, that I hadn't reached out last week to ask for tasks or something to do .. I could only agree.
Met colleagues at the office, one that had been on sick leave since last fall, September-ish or so, that now were back on part time. He had similar experience with brain-fog and self doubt (Imposter Syndrome) and angst. Got information about one of my medications, that is could be depression-inducing, causing depression, which I'm gonna ask about when I talk with the doctor -- if it can be replaced with something else.
I went home around lunch time today after doing some chores, calling for doctors appointment and checking some info. Came home and rested for a while, until son came home.