Medicated depression, day #11 - Therapy session
This morning I had therapy session with a therapist, introduction and I was asked a lot of questions and answered them, as well as described my situation and thoughts. It was an emotional roller coaster, telling this rather anonymous person about my innermost thoughts and what is going on in my mind. Afterwards it felt rather good and they asked me to think, ponder about certain topics and how I feel about them for the next session.
I told her that I blog, to process thoughts, to put words to my thoughts, that I sometimes let some posts marinate for at few days before going back, read through, edit and then publish .. several of my sticky thoughts that has been processed this way has gone away. They were pleased and said it was a good way of processing things, like writing letters to oneself.
For some reason I had another booked appointment later but I checked with the reception lady and there were no more bookings for me today, so I went down to the city and office.
When I arrived at the office, both of the delivery managers where present, it still gives me jitters, their presence .. as one of my insecurities and dark thoughts revolve around being terminated or fired, for being found out to be incompetent .. imposter syndrome .. found out to be a fraud.
I haven't told them about this, only my closest manager knows about this.