Medicated depression, day #102
May 1st, Red flag day, I slept in and woke up well after 9, had som light breakfast, got severe cramps and stomach rumbled and squeaked loudly, lay flat on my back in bed, to gently let gas pass and innards find their place again.
I'm still very tired and have an acute lack of energy, I feel I could go back to bed and sleep a few hours more on top of the almost 8 hours I got this night.
Wife and son are preparing BBQ on the balcony, seafood and pork/beef, for the electrical table top grill. I love that stuff but aren't that enthusiastic as usual, I think it's the medication that takes the edge off.
There is no plans for the day, other than BBQ for lunch.
Emotional and mentally I still feel drained, I get stuck in dumb stare at things where my brain just goes into a tight loop and everything else just stops .. breaking out of it minutes later not remembering what triggered it. Losing a few minutes.
As doctor and therapist have recommended; rest, rest and rest.
Later: Got a few more hours of rest but still feel tired, tomorrow I've got a doctor's appointment, or at least hope it'll happen since last time it was postponed. After that appointment, I need to call the KC, to let her know the status. Then walk to a grocery store nearby and pick up a package on my way home.
I hope they listen, to what I tell them about what is going on in my head, about my energy levels and sleep.